My mind feels great about our interaction last night, but my body says different. I've lost my appetite again and feeling very down. I don't know why because whenever we've had good exchanges since the B, I've always felt happy. Maybe it's because I see how far apart we are. How far we'll need to go. I just don't know, but I can't shake this uneasy feeling today.
BG, I am glad that things went well with your H. And I know what you mean about feeling crappy when you feel like you should be pleased with the interaction. I think sometimes that happens to me after a good interaction because it feels so good to be with him, and then it's ruined by him going him to his apartment instead of with me and the kids, or whatever it is that reminds me that we are S. Yuck. It also brings bad the vulnerability and uncertainty, which are hard to sit with sometimes.
Don't fight the bad feelings and anxiety, but don't let them overwhelm you. Just notice you are feeling that way, and let it be OK. There are going to be times (lots of them) when you feel yucky. Keep in mind that you will feel better soon, and refocus on your goals.
Hang in there, you are doing great!
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
