Thank you for your comment. I know the death of our babies had a HUGE impact on H, more than i knew then. I now realize that NO ONE could have felt what I did...my grief mattered most. I think that was how I survived. i never meant to make H a causality. Now this by no means excuses him for this cr@p, but I can understand it more clearly. I just wish he would seek IC.
I made it 2 days without any calls or emails to H...huge for me! I almost caved a few times! When i picked up S at my parents, he called H. Told him we were on the way to the dentist (5:30pm).
At 6:15, my cell rang (H), I finished appointment, then called H back, as he is always calling to chat with S.
"Where are you?" *sounded annoyed (H was on way home from work)
I said. "I had a dentist appointment."
H, "I thought it was S's?"
Me, "no, his is tomorrow."
It's funny, but H doesn't like it when I am unavailable...more incentive to keep on going.
