It sounds like you are in a bit of shock right now, which is very understandable.
Much of what you have shared is typical of those on this board. There is a huge surreal aspect to the bomb drop.
Please read read read. Read what Cadet has posted, read Divorce Busters and read the threads here on the DB boards. Also post as much as you can. This is an excellent place to vent your feelings because we've all been there.
Take care of yourself; be sure to eat healthily, get some exercise and enough rest. This journey is exhausting.
Best of luck.
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
