It's still football season-when's my bye week?

[Mtnman]

I'm struggling today. I don't know how much longer I can go. I was out of town yesterday and today. I don't want to go back to an empty bed. I want someone to miss me. Someone other than my boys. I want a hug. A real one. I'm tired of crying out to God and not seeing or feeling his presence. Or a change in my situation.

I was walking down the street last night in the city and it hit me. If I was beaten and thrown in the ditch, how long before I'm missed. No one is checking on me at night. Or in the morning.

It's just breaking my heart. I know the holidays are making it worse. I'm tired of hurting.