You are grieving CC. Let those feelings out somehow. Post your grief here, find a pillow and scream into it, cry in the shower, do something different and fun with your kids, or go for a long walk/run to get some endorphins up.

This cr@p is HARD.

There is hope, find it here on the boards with all the lovely people that support you.

{{{HUGS CC}}}

Me:49 H:47
S: 16
T:27 M:25
My EA: 2001
His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013
Separated, but H still in house

Find your Shambala: a place of peace and happiness.