Still trying to get up that great Big Hill...

[Not Quitting]

tiger, my fave tiger, I would LOVE to exchange numbers!! LOL. Too bad there isn't more ways to communicate on here, but they have their reasons. I would love to meet everyone here in person, that would be so amazing. Next time I drive around, I will definitely be thinking of you! Too bad I can't just drive over for a visit.

Pud, that's what the FB DB is for LOL. PMs are allowed on FB - number exchange can be done on there. Tigerlily just needs to join the FB group and you're off

[RosaLinda]

Wow Ms. Pud, looks to me like your H didn't like you not coming right home from work ! HE decided not to go out, so you should have come right home LOL! Yeah, right! Nice that he shared some of his thoughts about the Hawaii show, and actually looked you in the eyes. That is major, in my mind. My H NEVER looks at me, let alone in my eyes.

I am SO glad you woke up happy and singing after your past plethora of pity parties. That's because you are an awfully awesome amiga! Hmmm, didn't do so well with that one

I'm singing today too, that old Gloria Gaynor song "I will survive." Singing at the top of one's lungs may be caused by PMA, but I find it also helps my PMA! Carry on!

[tigerlily78]

Pud, that's what the FB DB is for LOL. PMs are allowed on FB - number exchange can be done on there. Tigerlily just needs to join the FB group and you're off

I made a new facebook for that, but I have no clue how to get connected to the group.

[Pudmuddle]

search for one of us, i am pudmuddle db.

[Pudmuddle]

Thanks NQ. It had been kind of quiet on there lately so it had slipped my mind at the time of writing.

Linda, my lovely, lustrous lady, your alliterations are awesome! Yeah it was kind of freeing to not be waiting for a reaction or anything from him! He has been more receptive to the small touches and actually looking me in the eye. I'll take it!!

I wish I could think of the song I was singing, it's going to bug me all day now. It's kind of like one of those dreams you have right before you wake up, and then you wake up and it's gone.

You WILL survive Linda, you are one strong lady.

[tigerlily78]

So interesting that your H didn't decide to do karate and seemed to have missed you not coming home... maybe you gave him a moment to think about what life would be like without you and it DID have an impact.

I will be hopefully optimistic that you keep the state of mind you are in... that you would be okay with a D if he wanted it. That is such a huge deal in the detachment department! I'm proud of you.

[Pudmuddle]

I'm not sure if he missed me, lol, but still it was interesting.

I'm sure I will have more down feelings coming, but I do feel like I am getting stronger and stronger within myself and I have missed that person!!

[2Times2Many]

Hi Pud,

It does sound like H wasn't too pleased with your late arrival. It may not be huge, but I think little stuff like that does make them think.

Glad to hear you are feeling better and singing!!! I hope you were singing in front of h. It is so hard to look pulled together and strong when your aching inside, but it sounds like you are doing a great job.

Hugs to my MLC sister!

2t2m

[BrightFuture]

Pud, catching up with the resent events. I have a lot to read on everybody’s developments.

It could be easily my H with the reply to your compliment, and he would also talk to the dog in the same exact way. I know what you mean when you say that you would rather have him hate you than just be indifferent. I feel the same way. Even though I think that in your case it is not completely accurate. He still does things for you. My H treats me like I never existed as his W, best friend and companion. He treats me like a distant acquaintance who he just messages once in a while and forgets about right after that.

I’m glad you had some nice moments with your H, like hugging and eye contact. I hope there will be more of these. Hang in there.

[Pudmuddle]

hi 2t, well I'm glad I post my happenings here because sometimes I don't see what others do. Thanks for pointing that out. It probably did make him wonder a bit. But he didn't even ask where I had been or anything. I think he feels like he doesn't have the right to ask...heh.

You're right too, Bright, he does still do things for me, even if they are not what I really want, but it is the small things. Sorry about your H...I just don't get how people can treat someone that way. I seriously think something snaps in their brain, not just mlc stuff. Too bad we can't just reboot them like computers. I guess their brains are doing that in a sense, but they just don't come back up as quick as computers!!!

I have been seeing more of the real him under there, in bits and pieces. I have to remember that. So thank you both.