Divorce on the table, Hoping for miracle

[Groov]

So.... Met with W last night at Olive Garden.... She basically ran me through the D Process that her attorney explained to her.

The talk started out by me saying "I want to be clear here, I do not want a divorce" W replies "I know"

I then sat and listened to her whole sch-peel. Custody, finances, property, child support.

I Db'd my butt off. Listened, good eye contact, asked questions. We didn't talk about the R, she didn't bring it up. She teared up a couple of times. I maintained a positive demeanor. Looking into her eyes repeating "Peace, be still" and "I love you more than you'll ever know" in my mind.

We finished dinner and gazed into each others eyes for a good long while. I reached across the table and we held hands, she held tight. After a while I said I need to go. As we walked to the door, she says "I hate olive garden now". We held hands as we walked. We gave each other a long hug, as we broke she kissed me on my neck. I paused pulled back a little and Kissed her on her lips. She pulled away first, (1 1/2 second kiss). I then walked out the door with blank Divorce papers in hand.

Need advise on DB'ing now. She wants divorce, she was prepared in her thinking of the finances and such. I don't want this divorce! What do I do here?

Another note, I had a very unusually profitable year this year. about double what I normally make (part time realtor commissions). The child support is now based off of that. Which is double of what it would be normally. I am worried... I want to do the right thing by my children. Supporting two households will be a burden that I am not sure we can handle financially.

I have been suspecting another person... but am not sure. She is an alien... My IC is very surprised with what is going on...