Shutting the F*ck Up

[RosaLinda]

"Maybe I am wrong but I feel if I don't allow him to sit and stare at the consequences of his actions, he will never figure it out. Maybe now that he is out of his relationship (and assuming he doesn't get into another one in a hurry) that he may begin to understand his choices and how they affected our relationship. Maybe..."

There was a time when I would have argued with you about this, Portia, but have come to see that you are right. MLC maybe be the reason for bad behavior, but it does not justify lying and cheating. You hang in there my friend. No one can know what's in SO's mind; I'm sure he IS missing you, and I hope to God that he is starting to see the wrong he has done, the bad decisions he has made, the pain he has caused. But he is going to have to do a LOT of work to make it right before you can even start to trust him again.

And you, a consolation prize? Don't make me laugh? I have a song for you my Portia, and I'm standing up and singing it at the top of my lungs with you:

Weren't you the one, who tried to hurt me with goodbye?
Did you think I'd crumble? Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh, no, not I, I will survive
Oh, as long as I know how to love, I know I'll stay alive
I've got all my life to live, I've got all my love to give
And I'll survive, I will survive, I will survive!

Only the Lord could give me strength not to fall apart
Though I tried hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart
And I spent, oh, so many nights just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry but now I hold my head up high

And you see me, somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person still in love with you
And so you felt like dropping in and just expect me to be free
Well now I'm saving all my loving for someone who's loving me

Go on now, go, walk out the door, just turn around now
'Cause you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one, who tried to crush me with goodbye
Did you think I'd crumble? Did you think I'd lay down and die?

Oh, no, not I, I will survive