NEW LIFE / NEW ME - AIRBORNE II

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Had a great day with S10 – we stalked the woods for 2½ hour and got the deer.
We have done some preparations for Saturday but tonight we will properly just enjoy ourselves.
A good friend and neighbors dropped by to say hi without notice – great!
I am feeling well these days.

I have been thinking a lot about a statement from one of the guy’s Friday evening. At some point he said “And it was W leaving you and not the other way around?” That has caught my mind and I will properly give him a call this evening and ask him to clarify. He stated that in a way that makes me believe that he was in doubt and I can’t see why he should be that.

Tomorrow Ds will be here and I look forward to seeing them.

JonF,
Thanks for being here! I follow your thread and it seems you are doing very well – that makes me happy!

F - do you think you should have pursued a little?

Nope, not at the moment! IMO W needs more time and so do I. She need to face reality and I need to face me. I am going to open up at bit. I have properly closed almost totally down and to be honest right now it feels wrong to open up. It’s not that I don’t want to be kind – I think I am just feeling rather good most days after starting LRT.
Still I am going strictly on Sandi and LTHs advice. I have been doing that for some time now and they have been spot on.

She then told me that was complete BS, and just her desperately trying to justify herself in her head.

I got the ILUB-speech on day of BD and have gotten I two or three times afterwards. If she said this to justify herself or because that’s actually how she felt I really don’t know, but I choose to believe that she once loved me deeply and that she can do this again.

LTH,
As always – thanks for all your support!

It is good to throw in a little something about your GAL or W won't know you have changed or what she is missing.

I know what you mean but honestly I don’t think I need to do this. The major part of Ws closets friends is also close to me and the other way around. So far I have not lost anybody significant to me and neither have she. On Saturday Ws two closets friends will visit me and my best friend just helped W buy a new TV-set and had her over for dinner. Things are so mixed up that it is hard to believe and I think W knows most of what I do already. Anyhow I will throw in something – it can’t hurt anything or anybody.

Little by little open up some.

I will try to do exactly this, but I will take it very slow! I will stick with the list I posted few days ago.

Melissa,

F, sorry to hijack your thread with this convo

No problem at all! If it’s relevant I welcome it – and this is!

F