Reaching out for support and advice!!

[bluesgal]

I had a great counseling session yesterday. She reminds me not to personalize the hurtful behavior from my H.

H and I went to our daughters Bball game last night and sat by one another. Laughed, joked. Talked the whole way there and home. Then, we stopped and got a bite to eat and had good conversation. I am patting myself on the back for great listening. This is a 180 for me. Normally, I do most of the talking and interrupting. I sat and listened, validated, shook my head, turned my body towards him. I asked him questions, gave eye contact. It was not always easy as he complained about me off and on. He is not easy on me. I was not defensive (Big 180)

My mind feels great about our interaction last night, but my body says different. I've lost my appetite again and feeling very down. I don't know why because whenever we've had good exchanges since the B, I've always felt happy. Maybe it's because I see how far apart we are. How far we'll need to go. I just don't know, but I can't shake this uneasy feeling today.