A few months in and I really am less scared. And less confused. H has shined a gigantic spot light on our M. I hid and covered my eyes for a while but then I looked and now see things much more clearly. I see how things have been bad for longer than I was admitting. I see where I played my part. I also see clearer things I blamed H for me.

I still don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but I have a teeny flashlight and at least see the top of the map.

Ok... done with the lighting imagery.

Me 44 H 42
M 10 T 12 (at time of BD)
Ss 20 16
S11 (special needs)

BD 9/13 H "unhappy for years" moves to seperate bedroom
10/13 EA/PA confirmed but denied
S and I move out 3/15