Last night was just one of those nights. W stayed over at her girlfriends house last night after they had their zumba class.
It was one of those nights where you stare at the ceiling. Wondering what the hell happened to your life. I felt very, very alone. Wasn't able to sleep much.
W came home this morning, I was eating breakfast so I just gave her a quick hello, didn't bother getting up. She came in to talk to me and asked if I would want to go with her and D to a live show. I agreed that would be fun.
I was getting ready to leave and wanted to say goodbye to my d. Went downstairs into the bathroom (thought W was giving her a bath) and they were both naked, as they were going to take a shower.
This was really hard for me. I have not seen her naked in about a month now. Just as beautiful as ever. I did my best to ignore the fact that she was naked, but inside I was going crazy. I gave my D a hug goodbye, stood up to leave and my W kissed me. (It wasn't a passionate ML to me kiss, but it was the first time she has initiated a kiss in MONTHS.) I smiled and left for work.
When I got in the car, I just sat and cried.
I'm going to do my best today to not think about it. Take it for what it was, and continue on my path.
