I understand what you mean. I have definitely been riding the roller coaster, but i'm trying to step back and take a more observant approach.
I feel like the whole thing yesterday may have been a "touch'n'go" because she didn't mention anything that happened. Although I only spoke to her on the phone briefly when she said goodnight to D.
She seems to have a harder time keeping control of herself when she sees me in person. Which is probably why she didn't come home today.
The Alpha/Beta book seems to have some good information. I like that it speaks more of BALANCE than of completely being a dominant a'hole (no more mr. nice guy book) There are surely some take-aways from Athol Kay's book.
Sandi,
When you say that you wanted your H to stand up to you. How? and you wanted him to initiate something other than sex?
For example initiate what we will be doing tonight? Make plans for the weekend and plan on going with or without? Confused to exactly what you are looking for.
I picked up the hold on to your nuts book.
Currently reading DR and 5LL, i'll finish these 2 first.
