Yup, it's Ruby and listen to Gabbysmom...and me...and job.
Or don't hun, because ultimately it is your life.
Sit with this for a while longer. It's not until January.
What can you do to shake yourself up? You are a little in panic mode right now and angry as well. I get that. This is not the place to ask H to go to what is essentially counselling, again, when he has refused time and time again.