Lou and Pud - thank you so much for your advise. You are right. I just need yo focus on acting how I want to act without any concern for how H may react. I know that I need to work on my confidence and assertiveness. I also need yo work on not letting H affect me in either a positive or negative way. I love being able to come to this board, write about my confusion and know people will be here to provide advice. Spending too much time with H and the holiday season makes me crazy because it feels normal and comfortable. I want to erase any remaining awkwardness but can't because of the OW. I need to remain patient.
