WORKING TOWARD CONNECTING WORKING ON ME

[Ambivalent]

Well he contacted me due to the propane co. not being able to engage the system.

Apparently they called him and told them they couldn't do anything until they can prove the system is working.

I did discuss me baking some things for Christmas and sending with cards. I also let him know I have two poss. job prospects.
Also , completed the cover letter and resume.

He sounded positive and friendly. I thanked him for calling me and the propane. Then got off the phone.

I was very matter of fact, no stress or anxiety in my voice. I told him I knew he was stressed. When he was looking for a job, he kept me up to date every single step of the way. Never withheld anything and the same with the insurance and life insurance. So out of respect , I felt he deserved the same consideration.

Yes , I know he wants to play. I would rather he get it out of his system, the sooner the better. He has got to be feeling so conflicted, because I'm killing with kindness.

I'm not going to allow my anxiety to drive me further into an emotional state. It DOES make things very uncomfortable.

You know what's weird? I gave him the routing and account # so he could do the direct deposit, but he hasn't. He made a point of me going and getting the account and even had time to do it by this last paycheck. He set it up for daughter's acct. It was discussed at Thanksgiving.

Yet he has done nothing about mine. Curious and curiouser !

So I'm going to eat dinner, go to dancing, and work on the possible printing of the resume.

I feel better now that we have talked.