Raine, I really appreciate your complete frankness and sincerity of expression on how you are dealing with your re-connection.
Your vulnerability is something amazing to behold, let alone share with so many people.
I am so thrilled to see your H really trying to connect and you allowing him to do this in his own way. I can truly understand the hesitation as well as the flashbacks. Very hard to deal with and you are doing this extremely well and with such grace in your heart. I hope you can see that in yourself, despite all the faltering and small setbacks.
I wish you all the best in your continuing journey.
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
Find your Shambala: a place of peace and happiness.