I do see h as not wanting to be involved at the house at all. He wants to give me the house. He wants no responsibility of it even though this is where his children live.

He wants to tell boys 17&20 about filing for D in dec after exams.
My guess is he has been waiting for me to finish this semester before pushing full steam ahead with D.

If I ask h about retrouville , it will be to do it for me. He gets what he wants a D, what do I get?
I will say to h that I want to know in my heart that I tried everything.
If he doesn't want to or can't at least I know I made the attempt.
I will have to go along with the d. What choice do I have?

Why do I want to still be with someone who doesn't seem to want to be with me?

Because I still think h is lost. I think h is afraid.

M48 H50
M21 T26
S20 at college),S17,D15-cp, dev. delay- cogniv 5yrs old
PA confirmed 7/2012
H separates 9/2012
H move home 2/13& 7/13 lasted 2weeks.ILYNILWY
OW still in picture. h filed 10/13