Yes Raine, it was always you. You are no doubt the one he loves, and always has loved.
You have been through a lot, as has your H. Except your pain was not self- inflicted, and you did not hurt the ones you love most. I can only imagine all the emotions swirling around within each of you right now.
You're doing great Raine. Keep moving forward, feeling what you need to feel, opening some doors and closing others, figuring things out as you go.
Very happy for you
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."