Wow Raine, I am learning much by reading your updates. Thank you so much for posting.

Originally Posted By: Raine
And the amount of pain he is in right now trying to come to grips with all he has done to me and the ones he loves is unbearable. It's incredibly hard to see him going through that. I look at the pain I'm going through, and you know what, I think my pain would be ten times more if I had been the cause of this kind of pain towards someone I love. No wonder he wants to bury it. I get it. I don't want to see him hurt either. I wish it was easier to fix.


I can now better understand how reconciling and healing can be very hard in some of these situations.

Originally Posted By: Raine

And that's the plan. Enjoy what I have and stop worrying about the things I am incapable of dealing with now. Because I can't. It's too much for me and it's too much for him. And I'm okay with that. Nothing has to happen now.


^^^Love! This should be everyone's plan. I truly believe that just like us, our spouses are doing the best they can, right now. Is that going to be good enough for us? Only we can say.

I'm wishing you and your M all the best.

M: A really long time.
Crisis: 5 years.
She's still worth it.

Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl