WORKING TOWARD CONNECTING WORKING ON ME

[Ambivalent]

Tiger...

Well perhaps if you approach it matter of fact, and like I said, act " as if "...it won't be an issue. Especially if this was a traditional thing that was done.

So sorry about the misunderstanding between you two over family. I get what you mean, when he said something and you assumed something else. Women tend to vent and spout off , while not necessarily meaning what they say.

Men are different that way. Mars/Venus again!

I am learning to not assume I know anymore. I'm going to ask until I'm blue in the face.

This is a 180 for me. Asking and qualifying.

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I do wonder if the changes I've made within myself are noticed. I know my daughter has noticed a lot of my changes. The physical ones are the most obvious.

She did notice that I took several days to put together Thanksgiving, and how it created a more relaxing environment. I did enjoy myself so much more, and I really loved playing the board game on Thanksgiving.

It also felt good to dress up. My brother in law noticed and even commented on it.

I am noticing that my H. has become somewhat more distant with our communication. Texts are up, calls down, and more brief.

Also he is waiting to open e-mails longer, and responding later.

I'm beginning to wonder what is happening. Is he becoming more involved with someone? Is he pulling away? Is it the holidays?


I also wonder about him hugging and kissing me. Is he trying to see how he feels, or is it something else?

I know ....MLC takes time...It still hurts. It still doesn't feel normal. Thirty three years is a very long time to just turn off.

What I'm thankful for:

Electric space heaters

My daughter, who happened to pop by today

The love and support she gives me during this difficult period

The gym where I may work off some stress and calories

Tomorrow I need to put Autumnal decorations away, and start to put Christmas up.

I should spruce up the front of the house on the outside. It looks horrible and depressing.

It looks as if someone who lived here died...A part of me has