Well, called my H to touch base with him today. He seemed very down and short with me. We are riding together to daughters Bball game tomorrow. He will meet me at my parents home. He also said 'We can talk more about it tomorrow' which is his new thing that he says but never follows through with.
He spewed a little anger again about my GAL. My 180 seems to be really hurting/bothering him that I seemed so unwilling to be open to going out and socializing before when he asked me and now I've become a social butterfly. He sees it as me wanting to do these things 'without him' now. He personalizes all my behavior as purposely hurting him. Ugh!! I am feeling so hopeless about our situation. I long to just have our friendship again! Hurting today...hope I find strength with prayer, IC tomorrow and support from everyone here!
BG, your switch doesn't sound hopeless to me at all. First off, your H has noticed your GAL and 180s. Second, he is angry about them. Of course, we'd rather he like them and decide that you two should R, but the fact that he has a reaction is good, because it means he still cares. He just needs to know that you have finally figured things out, and you are happier this way, and that you would love for him to share in your newfound activities. Third, I don't know much about Retro, but I do know that if your H is willing to do something like this, he must be fairly invested in your M. I *wish* my H would agree to do something like this.
So, I think you have a lot of positives going for you right now. Keep your chin up, keep your PMA, and keep doing the good work you are doing!!
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
