I love H but I just can't fight the devil(alcohol) anymore! My H isn't a daily drunk but about 4 times a month. 4 times too many times! The rest of the times its a cew day. My H said to me yesterday "like you always say, alcohol always will win!" So so but since this is our first time going through this. I know I'll never win the battle with his devil. I don't think I can ever get anywhere unless he stops drinking. What she said he never will. And with all his friends being alcoholic. I'm sure it will never happen. H hates me because I hate his addiction! H will always see it that way matter what kind of 180 I do. I always have to walk on eggshells when he's that way. It devastates me to admit it because I love him. I guess he's my addiction? After doing a pros and cons list it's really sad to see who's H real love is!! Alcohol.
M15 T19 D13 S13 BD Affair 9/13 S 11/13 D started 6/14.. dropped court date 10/14 H attorney can't get it together. Still with long distance ow. Still hates me.
