Still trying to get up that great Big Hill...

[Pudmuddle]

Yes, my H told me I could see other people. !!!

I just said 'I am married' and stared him straight in the eye. I know it was an attempt to justify his actions.

My question was really around the difference between someone being afraid of losing you versus wanting to be with you. I think about someone else only because I am severely lonely for physical touch. That in itself is not a good reason to be with someone else when I am married. I want to show him this time that I believe in this marriage and him enough to tough it out through this difficult time.