Moving My Picnic Blanket Over Here

[bustingout]

2! I is so lovely to hear from you thank you! How are you doing??

I'm glad to hear that I am not completely off for actually not wanting him around... I think because he is so rarely here that everything I have learned is theoretical and when he comes I get a chance to practice it ... And it's hard and awkward.

I really think that I can't see us ever reconciling. He is just not interested in me. I don't trust his new attitude towards me. I always think that there is an ulterior motive... It's not authentic. He is just being nicer for his own reasons. He doesn't have any motivation for anything else. Even if things have cooled down with Ow the. I think he would move on to someone else. He will never see my worth.

I give him nothing That he values. I guess soon in the near future I will need to tend to this. I don't want to give up hope however it may be time for me to really accept that h is never coming back. I thought I was there but his niceness threw me for a loop