whatever you do, do not leave if she demands that you do so
YES! Don't even entertain the thought of leaving.
As you hear these things, you can see/hear the confusion. Everything is contradictory. Every bit of it. (you're better than me; you're a joke. I don't need a man; he fills a hole. I tried to walk away to work on here (why if you're done?) etc. ) This is her inner turmoil and nothing you did or said.
It's hard to watch. Especially up close. Some of it will sting. Some will sting later. It's hurtful spew and it's how she feels at the moment she says it. But as you can see it's all jumbled up. I think you coined the term that it's like watching a dryer full of colorful clothes - very accurate.
Sorry for the funeral and for your loss. But the rest of it? Put it on a shelf and let it go to ground. Keep being you.
Peace, AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
