Hi. I have been reading your thread for a while and really wanted to reach out and give support today. You are up and down and confused and that it perfectly reasonable at this point. (If you were to read my thread you would say I am to confused to be giving advice to anyone)

You said above "maybe he thinks we have already had that conversation. " you may not have had that ultimate conversation you have been dreading but he has let you know where he is for now and what he wants for now which is space. As long as there is OW in picture you just have to give him that and protect yourself.

You also said a while ago that you thought about if he had died. I think that is normal. I certainly have been thinking that. It would hurt less. But then I think I would have never been forced to start working on myself. So in a way I feel H may be doing me a favor because now I am exploring some issues I never even knew I had.

So...don't know if there was anything useful in that ramble. Just my version of a virtual cup if comfort tea.

Me 44 H 42
M 10 T 12 (at time of BD)
Ss 20 16
S11 (special needs)

BD 9/13 H "unhappy for years" moves to seperate bedroom
10/13 EA/PA confirmed but denied
S and I move out 3/15