Can see sun with head out of sand - 2.5yr

[adinva]

Lol! I am so glad to hear they haven't been hiding hatred behind their cheery smiles at me all this time!

But i doubt having a solid case for my side would help with h; it's his anxiety that makes him disapprove so much of me. I think he was more looking to put me down than to spare the barista trouble. I don't think there's anything in the world i can do about that other than try not to take it personally.

My ic generally encourages me to stand up for myself and set boundaries with h; not sure if even she would think this rises to the level of needing to do something about it. Throughout the hours w h and mil i didn't verbally challenge or confront anything that was offensive to me, but i think i received their cr@p differently. I think it's ok to let them be themselves. I don't feel very cared about by either of them, though i think both of them inviting me to be there with the kids was their way of extending some caring feelings in my direction. With about the warmth of a 40-watt lightbulb.