So yesterday was Thanksgiving. All in all it was a great day to be honest. I started and ended the day in a great mood. W didn't know what the hell was going on. She kept saying... You seem different. Why are you in such a good mood? I even had the courage to smack her rear. She didn't yell or get mad at me, she just gave me this look like... where did that come from? a look of complete confusion.
We went over to her family's for dinner. Her aunt kept commenting on how good I looked. "you've lost so much weight!" And then she asked me if I had seen that my "twin" won sexiest man alive this year. (Everyone thinks that I look like Adam Levine. the lead singer from Maroon 5). She and others kept commenting on this, telling my W that she was lucky to be married to the sexiest man alive.
And at first my W just kind of smiled, said she had heard about it, etc. But she kept touching me. She would touch my arm, put her hand on my face and kind of just gently stroke. It was strange. (probably also the best feeling i've had in months) She also kept asking me to be around her. Asked me to come sit with her, and also asked if I wanted to take a nap with her?
Obviously this all could have been a show, put on for her family so that they wouldn't know anything is wrong. But it was nice to have a little attention.
When we got home she asked if I wanted to rent Man of Steel ( the newer superman movie). I've been wanting to see it for a long time now, so we rented it and watched it together. We sat on seperate sides of the couch, but it was something.
When we went to bed, I asked if it was ok if i held her. She said yes. I held her all night, and didn't dare let go.(Yes this was pursuing, but she will be moving downstairs this weekend... and it was something that i needed to do. I needed to hold her as my wife, at least one more time)
What did I learn from all of this. BE POSITIVE. ACT AS IF, and I can be happy, if i choose to be.
