Look, you can twist yourself in knots with the "alpha/beta" stuff, and at the end of the day, if it's not "who you are", then you're really not living your life with integrity.
It's something to be aware of, it's something to be educated about. It can give you pitfalls to avoid, but unfortunately for too many LBS's it sets you on a path of trying to remake yourself into a romance novel cover model, and that's just adding more self-torture in a scenario when you are tortured enough.
The strange part in all of this, is that i feel like in every other aspect of my life, I am the leader. When it comes to my job, people come to me with questions, they ask me how things should be done. In some respects i am the authority. It has always been this way with my friendships as well. I take the lead and my friends will follow.
This is especially true in my online games. I'm confident, i have great belief that i know what i'm takling about. People listen to me, and follow my lead.
When it comes down to it, in all of these examples, i feel comfortable in knowing how to lead these situations. I have confidence that i know what to do.
