you're not a failure at all. remember - it's not "not caring" - it's ACTING AS IF....
THAT'S all- just not allowing your sorrow to poison your happy moments - okay- pleasant moemnts - oh well, okay.... not-awful moments.
it's just keeping on living despite it. and you're doing it. i'm not detached - and i don't even feel flooded withlove or affecton when i look at h or hear his voice as i used to ..
it's sad - idk what it means - maye i'm getting to hate him for real- i don't even know- i'm not going to even examine it-
I THINK IF you're alive still, in the house still, able to feel love still- and not yelling at him every single time you see him you're doing great.
pat hyourself on teh back for existing in your space with him - and don't see it as failure at all. wtf??????
are ya thinking you're only successful if you're wearing a pink organdy party dress with a big bow and red shoes and dancing a jig?
imho - success is just not failing - in this mlc thing. and you're not failing if you're still alive and standing and trying.
look at the things you do dn still enjoy- you're getting on with your life best you can- better than me and most folks.
don't expect perfection - view yourself from outside eyes- i think in the context of your own particular mlc "adventure" you're hanging in there remarkably well and even-tempered and with much love and kindness. it's waaay more than i have aloto f the time (defensive & sarcastic - $hit that i am.)
oh well huh? we're supposed to "trust" the process and trust God- i'm thinking trust is a key feature. dig deep and find it man- you're a god-fearing woman - you can do it & feel it most probably.
you're doing good. THO, NOW THAT I THINK OF IT- i've felt like a total failue an accept4ed it in several ways - and it is aload off my bck to stop "trying" - let me turn allll that around and say embrace it- it can set you free
