Hi team! Long time no updates. I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving day. We did... for the most part.

As posted earlier, W agreed to host my family for dinner at our house. It was a lot of work, and things were a little tense here and there, but we worked well together and put on a great dinner and had a good time. When the meal was done our nephew put on a music show for everyone.

I gave W a side hug, and with a feeling of relief she said "I did it". I said yes, you did, and everything turned out great. She is very hard on herself and had earlier made mention of a few details she wasn't satisfied with.

The guys went in the basement and played ping pong, foosball and darts.

At dinner my first sister announced that she was recently diagnosed with breast cancer. She was in great spirits and said it was likely still in stage 1. We all offered her words of support.

After everyone went home, and W and I were cleaning up, we started to discuss sisters situation. W said if it were her diagnosed with cancer, she would not seek any treatment, "because she has no kids and no reason to stick around." (in life) I asked "Did you ever consider that I would miss you?" and she replied "yeah, but you'd get over it".

She went on to say that she doesn't even want to go for screenings anymore... she'd rather not know and just die if that's what's "supposed to happen".

I pressed her a bit because I felt like it, and because I don't believe we have to always STFU.

M- "What about our pets? Don't you even want to stick around for them?"

W- "I already figured they'll check out before me, so it doesn't matter."

There was more, but basically it was her depression speaking... with a mini bomb drop of me realizing where she's still at with me.

So, since I was already wondering if I should give up on our M, this of course has me questioning my standing even more.

I'm not sure yet how I will proceed, but I'm not going to STFU, and it seems something has to give eventually.

I'm thinking my "something new" may be to ask W if she thinks it's normal for people to not care whether they check out of life, or feel like they have little reason to live. I'm hoping this might encourage her to seek help.

Advice or comments are welcome.

M: A really long time.
Crisis: 5 years.
She's still worth it.

Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl