It was going good then the discussion turned serious. About how we're going to schedule our son. I'm not entirely sure what happened but she's upstairs crying in the shower. Says she's tired of this happening all the time. In my defense this doesn't happen all the time. We rarely fought during our 7 month reconciliation.
I think she's just telling herself stories to justify how she's feeling. She's actually not making much sense but I'm sure I'm not listening from her point if view. I'm trying so hard to understand but then she says she doesn't want to talk about it. But then we end up talking some more. I'm thoroughly confused.
She says she's tired of relationships and pressure. I'm gonna assume it has nothing to do with that but more to do with how she feels about herself. There was no pressure during our reconciliation though she viewed things as pressure I'm sure. I wasn't intentionally trying to pressure her. Pressure her to do what I'm not even sure. She seems so confused.
This is what the back step feels like. It is a familiar scene. Now I just gotta get this thing moving forward again.
I have a tough time just letting her be when she's this hurt. Why does she keep saying she wishes I was like this 5 years ago? She said that exact same thing during our 14 month separation. I've been this way for almost 2 years now and I know a part of her sees it but a huge part of her can't.
This hurts....
Me-35 Com law-28 S-3 T-6 yrs w/14 mnth bu 1st bu- 2/2012 Rec-4/2013 2nd bu-10/2013 IC-2 yrs(anger issues) MC- 5 mnths-fail OM~1/1/14 OM dumped 6/4/14 New OM ~10/4/14
