A few weeks ago I snooped into H's iPad and saw conversations he had with OW on Skype. It was such a shock to read what I did (promises of love and her pushing him to divorce me, while they bad mouthed me and she put H on a pedestal). I know it's not the smartest thing to snoop but it killed what was left in my heart.
Ever since then I could not even look at H and eventually asked him to leave. He had both feet ready to bolt out the door already. All he warns to talk about is money and divorce.
Turns out that according to my lawyer, I'm entitled to a lot and now H is panicked since he already pays a lot to his ex. I have a feeling this may turn out ugly.
He still comes over every day to see the boys and the house literally becomes darker. He is such a depressing person. When it's just the boys, my mom and I, the house feels good and we actually laugh a lot. H is always in a bad mood, angry and depressed.
Take today, thanksgiving, for instance. He will spend it alone (unless ow is already in town) in a tiny apartment somewhere.
The other day, in one of our conversations, he says he feels empty, like he has no soul. That is a strange comment. Another time, I caught him staring at me with hatred in his eyes that were so eerie that it creeped me out. My mom says she gets those looks too.
I look at our wedding pictures and see him looking at me with loving eyes. IRS hard to recognize this guy.
