Back....again.

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I just briefly went over it but I can't seem to find much help. A lot seem to have more "mid-life" issues. And a lot have OM or OM. Not the case for me. In this position do I withdraw a bit? Don't force physical affection? One of the thinks I read over there was to be friendly but occupied. Never initiate conversation. And always finish and leave room first. I will work on this tonight. If I can get this pit out of my stomach.

I'm so tired of being strung along. "I'm happy. I'm not. I'm happy. I'm annoyed with you and don't know if I can fix it. But tomorrow I'll make sure I come visit while you are home and initiate physical affection"

I feel like my mental being is starting to go downward and I'm getting depressed.