on the edge pt 2

[dingo]

Well the lease is signed (again) and she is moving out. She is a lot less emotional about everything this time and it seems like she has firmly made up her mind that she needs to do this. I have accepted that she's leaving and will let her go without any further discussion.

Although I have not told her yet, I have also decided to give her the benefit of the doubt and be patient. I will not push the divorce right away but will see how things go for a while. At the moment it's because I don't really know what I want so I am going to do nothing until I am sure. As much as this hurts, there is no stopping it.

So here is where I need some advice. How do I handle the next few weeks? As I have said before, almost all of our iinteractions are positive except when we talk about the relationship. Do I continue these and act as if things are ok? How about when she leaves? Do I take her up on her offers to hang out? Do we spend the holidays together?

She insists that the affair is over and that it's not having a direct impact on her decision. That being said, I am sure that feelings that the affair awakened are why she is questioning everything.

She keeps saying that she thinks there's a real chance for us but it's 'too late' for any of the things I suggest - like taking some time before moving out or letting her get settled in her new job away from the OM.

I guess I feel like I can't make any more mistakes with her- like calling a lot, trying to compromise, etc. Relationship talks are just so hard because it's like we are speaking different languages.