I think that you are subconsciously waiting for him to apologize for hurting you and admit his bad decision. This is why you have so much anger towards him. It is interesting that you said that you tried to keep the conversation neutral. I did the same thing in my last talk with H over the phone two months ago. He can interpret it as you not being interested. So probably did my H. But, I guess, I don’t care anymore what he thinks. If he wants to reconnect, he will find the way to do it.
Right on all counts, Bright.
A part of me is waiting - not necessarily for an apology in words, but yes, some kind of acknowledgment that the reason we have not spoken in eight months was because of his actions. But he did not even sound the least bit sorry.
Rattled off that he had moved for July 1 and his phone was out of service. And I never factored into this at all. Did it ever even occur to him to tell me? We were not totally radio silent in July but he never said peep.
I may not have been as welcoming as I could and while I might be sorry if that is the reason I never hear from him again, I will live with that. Maybe he expected the red carpet, who knows? If a little justified hesitation stops him from calling again, then he isn't worth it anyway.
In my heart, try as I might, I cannot seem to cut that last thin thread between us. Not sure why. Maybe he will make that decision for me, who knows?
