Quarter Life Crisis?

[flgurl84]

So here is a dilemma, two of my best friends feel I should check the phone records, to see if he is cheating on me. Or atleast, who, if anyone, he is talking to.

I get a major case of anxiety just thinking about it. I feel as though I would die of a broken heart if I saw some random number over and over and calls and texts. Since I get none.

I am basically scared to. It would change everything. I would almost rather live in my oblivion.

I thought about, if he did come back and want to work on things, that maybe I would check the records then. I have asked him if he is seeing someone. He has stated no.

I do have a trust issue. He knows this, and hates it. He feels I never have trusted him, so I want to 180 the HECK out of this.

Last month I told him I do not check the records, and that is when he said he was not seeing anyone. I believe him.

Any advice?

Since he is never here, there is never any random "evidence" to find.

I guess when he is home for the holiday he very well could tell me its over, I've found someone new, move on.

And that is what I would do. I would just tell him OK. I don't think he could get over me that easily. Or I guess because the DR books and this BB say the OP is usually a passing fancy.

But of course nothing is confirmed.

Any advice on this?