I think many people believe in the contract with God. If I behave this way or do that I'll receive some benefit. Unfortunately it doesn't work that way.
Also, Some of the richest people I know are the poorest in terms of materialistic things. I'm a firm believer that richness is inside ourselves you just need to find it.
Tad, I am 4 yrs removed from BD and divorced. My EXW never looked back once. Am I better that she is gone? absolutely. Do I have days where I think about what could have been? Absolutely.
Give yourself a break. This is difficult stuff. Making the best of this is a lifelong journey.
