Two wrongs don't make a right, and whether he has an alienator or is just experimenting, I'm not going there. He needs to do what he needs to do.
He didn't do this until after he left, about 4 to 5 months, so the way I see it...he has to run the course.
He is in a crisis, there is NO doubt on my supposition .
Too many tell tale signs. How he has been introspective, disappointment in himself, regrets over things undone, and done. Looking for "change" and having a mass of confusion he cannot sort through.
His emotions, and feelings are all jumbled, his words.
He has never said I don't love you. Matter of fact he has sought answers to why he wasn't desiring me. But I do believe this is changing. For I have physically changed and I am not exuding any sadness nor any anger. I actually never exuded anger. I listened and validated at the time he dropped the B.
I have listened since. I do know this...HE has to figure it out, and I told him this way back. I also told him I had confidence he would.
As long as he doesn't flaunt or contract some incurable disease, it is something he needs to discover. He may have been scared to death that he would never experience "excitement" again.
As long as he is kind and respectful to me, continues to be responsible, I'm willing to stand by my man. When and if I'm done, I will be done for good.
It has been slightly over 6 months, he is in the replay stage. Hopefully he will get tired of the life. I noticed he looks physically tired.
He's 55, and whether he wants to believe it or not, staying up late and getting up early takes a toll on someone's body.
He looks about ten years my senior and he's only 2 years 3 months older.
I have been getting my own self esteem stroking with my dance class. It not only is great physical release, and exercise but it allows me to talk with many different men. It allows for safe physical contact with many different ages. It is close contact, being held, and keeps one from being tempted.
I have had many men give me wonderful compliments and show their appreciation for my skill of dance and my physical appearance.
It does this woman some good, for I know I'm not an old work horse, but someone who is still vivacious and has much life to live!
I just want to jump his bones though! Ha! He is coming for Thanksgiving , and his brother who always comes will be too. So we are having a "family" day tomorrow.
I'm going to wear my V.S. bra and thong. It will help ME to feel sexy around him. I will wear something figure flattering and something that he can get a peek of my top if he so chooses. He is much taller than I , so that shouldn't be too difficult for him >;}
Formerly Workinprogress H :55 M :over 29 yrs. Together : 33 D : college D : adult BD and left : May 2013 Separated Experimenting/Replay
