I've been following your sitch and cannot believe how similar your's is to mine. I had a problem with texting and emailing H. It was like I needed to connect (H is overseas most of the time and rarely calls). It is so hard to break that urge.
And, I've done some backsliding about OW also. Difference is - H will come home and say "Is there anything you want to know?" and I'll say no, then change my mind and ask about OW. (And he tells me a lot of stuff I wish I didn't know.)
I think it drives you kind of batty not knowing what you're up against and the urge to find out is sometimes so overwhelming you can't fight it.
It sounds like you have a great C. I would really like to know what you come up with about how to show respect to your h. I've been trying to come up with some ways, but am not getting very far.
Hang in there.
2T2T
Me: 59 and holding H: :53 Me: 1 S, 1 D, both grown M: 19 T: 23 BD: 9-23-2013
