on the edge pt 2

[dingo]

This has by far been the hardest couple of days since this whole thing started. For the first time I understand some of the first advice I got from the community here which was 'don't underestimate how done she really is.' We have argued back and forth the last 12 hours with me asking her not to move out and her asking me not to pursue the divorce. I have offered a couple of compromises but she won't entertain them.

She is envisioning that she will come over a few nights a week for dinner and we will meet for coffee in the morning after she moves out. I am envisioning going dark. We just can't seem to agree on anything right now. Even holiday plans are all over the place.

I am trying to be hopeful and caring but I just do not think I can go through a separation. I have been spinning things over and over in my head all morning trying to find some middle ground but it seems there is none.

I am also trying not to categorize all of our interactions as good or bad but she has said some hopeful things. Problem is, I get the impression that it's just to let me off easy. I don't think I am interested in just a friendship. At least not for a long time.