I don't think it's about waiting for her but rather waiting for YOU.

I think there was a similar pattern when you were last here. Am I right in that?

What's scary for you about being without another wife, date, GF?

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss