Hi Tad, I feel for you dude, “Hang On In There Baby” check this song out, it’s by the late Johnny Bristol from 1974.
If I remember your Sitch correctly, would I be right in thinking that it was your Grandmother that raised you? If So, then I believe you could be carrying hurts regarding your relationship with your Mother. You seem to suffer from emotional abandonment like I used to. Still to this day my Mum doesn’t recognise the hurts she and my late dad caused us. She can only see it from her POV and she can’t see how this could have affected myself and my younger Bro, eldest Bro was the least affected.
If I had had a more balanced upbringing then I would never have gotten involved with my Ex W in the first place! When I got involved with her I didn’t realise or fully understand the obvious red flags that I was seeing in the first 2 to 3 years of our relationship. You see, at times I used to witness sh1t between my parents and I must have thought certain kinds of crap was acceptable in relationships.
So I should have given my Ex the big HEVO not later than 1976. But by then I had become to emotionally attached to her and vice versa! Her Dad was a very poor communicator and her Mum was and still is very naïve.
Love Delboy
P.S. I believe you are showing some compassion to your Ex. As times moves on you’ll start to get the bigger picture.
