Feel like falling down

[willbwell]

I have just realized I have expectations about Tgiving. I am expecting h to ask me what the plans are for the day...

Ive gone over the scenario in my head. I will say blah blah blah Maybe he has prior plans and will ask nothing.

Once again I am setting myself up to be disappointed.

of course, I'll have a great day with kids. I know this.

Just realized, I want h to ask so I can say...the kids and I are doing a new normal. not doing this for any reason other than to kind of stick it to h. In my warped mind, I want to stick it to h. I want to be smug and say see...We are doing the family thing. sorry you chose otherwise.
What is wrong with me?
This is vengeful...boy do I need help.
The devil loves me1 I am so easily swayed.
Think I sound a bit psycho!
Even I get tired of hearing myself talk.

Man,I really need to move on!