Is your son still 1? (reading your sig line) Because if he's that young, you two are beating each other over the head with odd year even year divorce decree struggling plans and he's in toddler la la land. Makes it sound like it's all about the adults and what they want, and they're willing to stress themselves out and lose their joy in the process of dividing up his time. I really hope you two find a way to relax your grip on how you want things to be.
I think you're right to follow the decree, just think you need to release a lot of the other stuff you've added that creates your emotional state. Like caring if she's "struggling" about not getting her way, or dreading the time of year because it's not what you wanted... let it go for your little boy's sake and follow the decree as best you can.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.