Where am I at pt 2

[Icecoldw]

Just started reading the book self matters, trying to figure out how to gain my power back and live a happy and passionate life.

Today I have been in a different mood, been thinking about a life without the w, don't know if I want to deal with the a, whether it was an ea or pa, the bottom line is she lied and betrayed me and I deserve to be treated better. Don't want to live my life wondering if we r our m if we got in a fight, or she got bored would she go and have another a. Don't want to be looking over my shoulder wondering if the op would try to hook up at some later date.

I feel like she is eating cake, she's out living at her parents house, her parents are maybe there on the weekends maybe gone for several weeks, so she has a lot of free time to have op over with out anybody knowing. Mean time she will not file for d so I will be on the hook in case it doesn't work out with op. I think that May be why she moved out so soon was so she could be with op and not feel guilty because she was living with me. Idk