You and your antsy, my friend. LOL! Time to get that under control, now, ya hear?
You know, T, as we have seen on this forum, trust and forgiveness means different things to different people.
Both are necessary in order for both of you to move forward. You cannot have a relationship without them. Figure out what they look like for you.
Right now your job is to give her plenty of space, to show her with consistent actions that your changes are real,
She needs to feel safe. She needs to believe in the possibility of trust and forgiveness. How and when you get there is up to the two people involved. She needs to know that you are all in.
T, now is the time when the LBSer gets impatient. It is when your expectations have to be kept in check. It is when the MLCer is really looking inward. You may see some different stuff.
She may take a few steps back in order to make a big leap forward.
You can do this, T. I am going to be on you to keep the antsy in check. LOL! And as always, I am rooting you on and praying for you, my friend.