Feel like falling down

[willbwell]

I do try and focus on the now. I do try to remember gratitude.
Maybe its the holiday...
Made a stupid mistake today. temp checked. stupid stupid. I know better.
Does no good to beat myself up, I know.I have got to get rid of the expectations. This will be my prayer.

I had expectations at the school event that h and I went to recently. I looked great. thought surely, h will see what he is giving up.
Nope
h will act nice and then I read too much into it and get my hopes up.
No movement on D. Mind reading on my part, but think h is waiting for me to finish this semester.

tired and frustrated. So, what to do....
I pray continually for peace.
I pray that God will give me the strength to really let go.