So last 2 days have been all about business. Yesterday morning H walked right past me abd left without saying goodbye. I planned on a NC day since I wasn't going to be home from work till late. Ended up having to call him to figure out who was going to be with S during winter break. He may have to go stay with MIL for few days and she wanted to finalize plans. H said he couldn't help but then called back and said he would see what he could do.

Planning a Thanksgiving/Hanukkah for just me and S. No idea where H will be. Want it to be fun for s. Already feeling sad about New Years. H and I had a really nice time last year and this year I will be alone as all friends and fam are to far to visit with only 1 day off work.

Still having a hard time wrapping my head around this. A few months ago H is calling and texting mid day to tell me he loves me and misses me and "now I am just somebody that he used to know. " someone he won't even say good morning to. How does that happen?

Been looking into classes to take as a way to meet people. Most start in Jan but that's okay because work will be busy in December. Also found an Alanon meeting that I can go to the week after Thanksgiving.

Me 44 H 42
M 10 T 12 (at time of BD)
Ss 20 16
S11 (special needs)

BD 9/13 H "unhappy for years" moves to seperate bedroom
10/13 EA/PA confirmed but denied
S and I move out 3/15